Letters To Future Me – Podcast Ideas and Advice Columns


Dear Future Me (and other reader),

I’ve always been bad at feeling and emotions. Owning up to them or acknowledging them. I repress a lot, and I know enough to know that it’s not healthy to repress, but that’s what I do. That’s why I like to watch movies that makes you cry, that is about the only time I let myself feel whatever it is that I’m feeling. But in the real world, where, let’s say a friend is pouring her heart in front of me, I would just be shocked still, too afraid that if I move, do anything to console her, she’ll cry more and louder. I’m not the best friend to be around for those moments.

I’ve kept a diary since I was in 6th grade because writing makes me feel better. I usually start a blog account because I was exceptionally feeling shitty that day and I thought that I would be braver at confronting my feelings if I type them all down. But even with the safety of anonymity, I just can’t seem to allow myself to be truthful that this makes me sad, or that makes me angry, or this is depressing me…it’s a tough way to live. One thing I would admit to is that I am good at lying to people and to myself about my true feelings. When someone does something horrible to me and confronts me about it, I go, “I’m fine. I was not hurt it all”, but deep inside I’m diarrhea. Just wet and painful and suppressed.

The reason why I’m writing this is I was thinking of starting a podcast. I don’t even want to label it as a podcast because podcast is like a professional term that I shouldn’t use for this “idea” that I have. I originally wanted to write an advice column type blog, thinking that it would help me better myself in addressing my own emotions and shit if I get to talk about (and help) other people with their issues. Think Andrew W.K, just less cool.

So I don’t know, maybe this will happen, maybe it won’t. I mean, I don’t know enough people who would voluntarily as me questions let alone advice.

But if any of you gets to read this, and you have like a thing you want to talk about with someone, maybe we can start here. Send me a comment, or email me at dora.argh@gmail.com. No subject is taboo. You can remain anonymous. Or if you just want to talk, add me on Facebook (same email). But if no one would respond I think it’s already cool that I at least had the strength to say and admit how much I suck. I guess that’s step one, right?

P.S. – Are we still bad at admitting to our true feelings? If yes, go out and appreciate the beauty of the world. If no, update this post.



  1. Always here for you if you need to chat Dora. Nothing is taboo. I think the podcast idea is a good one. I won’t say don’t be too harsh on yourself, but that would be hypocritical of me. I will say this. I will be gentler to myself if you do the same.

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